38 Weeks, or, as I’m thinking of it – 100 years pregnant
I know I’ve written a few less-than-glowy posts about being pregnant over the past 38 weeks but, I am really truly excited about meeting this new bub on Friday. We’re pretty ready, really, if I ignore the crazy nesting part of me that is screaming at me all day or the fact that we don’t have a car to fit us but we’re at least on our way and there’s a part of me that feels like I’ll find my way even if it’s stumbling about in the dark with my eyes closed and arms flailing about wildly.
It was only a day after I wrote about having some kind of mental block in a recent(ish) post that I reaslied what it was, unfortunately, that realisation hasn’t helped me be able to move past my block and focus on less of the crappy-current-pregnancy stuff and more of the oh-my-gosh-I’m-having-a-BABY stuff.
Because it’s hard to focus on the baby bit when you don’t want to have to think about the part where the baby goes from inside your body to outside your body. Jasper’s birth was horrendous and there are a few issues putting me in a higher risk category this time around (ie 4th caesarean, a blood disorder) and, honestly, I am terrified.
Completely and utterly out of my mind.
Thankfully, I have started to feel the excitement and see life with a newborn, which is taking the edge off. Plus, I have enough ridiculous pains keeping my mind occupied (who needs to walk, anyway?).
I’m still so very nervous but I keep my mind on meeting Baby Patch, on the kids finally getting to see their new sibling (it’s been a looooong 7 months of “Mum, when is Baby Patch coming out?”) and of making our way as a family of 6. It’s always been my dream and now, here it is.
If you’re the praying/positive thought/light sending type, I could use your thoughts on Friday if you can spare a moment. And, while James’ job is to update here the night of the birth you will probably be able to see baby pics on my Facebook or Instagram earlier if you’re interested.
Linking up with Essentially Jess for #ibot
